Well,

Today was a good day, I've had 7 interviews this week, with 1 follow up on Mon., 1 phone interview on Tues., and another one the week after! PPPPPPlease, just give me a fuckin' job already!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just talked to to Tony and he's working late again. I understand that he needs to right now, but, I wish he at least act like he would rather be at home. I miss the old Tony, not just after the BS, but before we had kids, he used to be sooo laid back and so calming to me, now he stresses with/me out. I miss his affection,his soft touch on the arm when he walked by me. The kiss for no reason, I really miss that. I'm glad Katrina is here, she helps it so I don't feel so alone, I think if she weren't here I would still be BSing (Bullshitting with the fucking pillls) I just get lonely, now I can't even go out and when I'm at home with  Tony I still feel like I'm alone because he acts like he doesn't even want to be around me, I can tell. Whatever, I just think this was a good week cause things are starting to look in the right direction. Talk to me soon......................